Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Grief is Strange

Sometimes you think you've moved on, that the process wasn't as bad as you feared, etc. Then some days it drops on you like a load of bricks.

In the process of cleaning out office files and old emails, I came across a few notes from Amanda. Stupid, silly, snarky stuff. And I completely teared up and felt like I'd taken a left hook from out of nowhere.

I frickin' HATE cancer.


  1. Anonymous11:52 AM

    I hate it too Kim and I know what you mean, it does just hit you from out of nowhere. Keeping you in my thoughts.


  2. Jen Sample1:48 PM

    I'm sorry Kim, I hate when it hits you out of nowhere like that. I'll still hear a song or see a picture or have a random memory pop up in my head that will bring me to tears and Amy passed 2 years ago. It does get easier though, promise.

  3. Just wanted to let you know I'm thinking of you.

  4. Me too. I had done so well through the sickness, being asked to go to Houston, running out of time, planning the service and trying to do what she'd want me to do for Adrian & Alastair. Then, about 3 weeks ago it finally hit me. Hard.
    Now, everyday there is something I need to talk to her about. Something I want her to know.
    I hate cancer.

  5. Anonymous11:52 PM

    Thinking of you and sending hugs.