Wednesday, April 08, 2009

Hitting a wall...

There are times that I just hit a wall. It's a natural process we all go through, I know, but some times the wall seems a bit higher than others.

The past few months have been incredibly challenging in so many ways. I've found myself digging deeper within for strength to simply get up some mornings. It's not like I'm going through more than anyone else, it's just that, for some reason, I'm struggling right now. Doors are being closed all around me, and I'm stuck in a bit of limbo, waiting for new ones to open. I'm not a very patient person by nature, so the waiting is starting to bite at me. I keep trying new doorknobs and they're locked... one day one will open, I'm sure.

I'm having a hard time trying to find time to write, let alone get what I want out. Most of it I don't want to share with cyberspace, let alone many of my closest friends. So, hang in there. I'll be back to my normal self one day soon. Or maybe not. Either way, better blog posts will be in the works.

By the way, Amanda's send off was great. It was so nice to reconnect with friends old and new to say goodbye to one helluva great friend. A gaping hole is left in cyberspace and my circle of friends, but I'm better for have knowing her.


  1. Tanya5:04 AM

    Hang in there!

  2. To be honest, I think that right now, you are going through more than most people and that it's happening in a relatively short period of time. I can only imagine how difficult it must be. But please know that I'm here, in cyberspace and IRL, if you need anything at all.

    big hugs,

    PS. Maybe the opening won't be in the form of a door, maybe it's a window or a sky light...but I hope it comes soon.

  3. I feel what you're going through. My circumstances are not the same as you, but it seems I was in the same place as you up until recently. One afternoon, I watched an interview with Michael J. Fox, on TV , about his new book. One thing that really stuck in my mind - happiness is a decision. I bounced back, started making changes. A few days ago, I feel that I'm back on track. I really think that things/events happen in our lives are signs of new focus to keep us lively. The world around us changes and we need to change with it, define our own directions and purposes. I know you will be doing well very soon :)